Up until 2022, I was not an artist. When I was a kid, I wanted to be one, and was disappointed that I was bad at it. My sister would draw pictures, mostly cartoons, and I admired her skills. Anytime I would try to draw, I felt like it looked nothing like what I was trying to draw. I am sure every picture I drew ended up in the garbage. I never tried as I grew older, and I would tell people that I was bad at drawing.
In 2022, we moved in with my in-laws. Matt was unemployed, and it was a rough time. I was depressed. I didn't have much to focus on except the fact that we couldn't find a job for Matt. I randomly bought myself a small sketch book to doodle in. I needed a new hobby to take my mind off things.
I found a simple art tutorial on YouTube. I was honestly surprised when my drawing actually looked like the drawing I was trying to make! It was simple, yet I was excited. I did more tutorials. Then I began to explore what it would be like to simply look at a picture and try to replicate it.
I'm the first to admit that I'm not a prodigy artist. In fact, I've got a lot of space to become better. My skill at drawing was just higher than I expected that I could do. That was a cool discovery. If I hadn't been in the place that I was, needing to find new things to put my attention towards, I don't know if I would have ever tried drawing at all. I'm glad I found art. I love creating. I love drawing.
My art exploration has grown to watercolor and font art. I enjoy all these things. If I hadn't tried drawing first, I don't think I would have done these other things. They all bring me joy. I would have missed out on all these things that I love. This is the first time I've seen that experience of unemployment actually bring me to a place to experience more joy. I've always seen it as a really hard time that we suffered through. It was a really hard time, but it brought me to explore new parts of me that I was convinced weren't a part of me. I'm grateful to have more joy in my life in the form of art.
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