39 Years

 

I'm 39 years old today! I'm still alive and going strong!

I've been hyper-focused on my birthday this year, but not because I'm particularly excited or dreading turning 39. I've got my forty goals that I'm trying to accomplish before I'm forty, and all my attention is on getting goals done! 

As I reflect on my age, I realize that I'm quite content with where I am. I have gone through many challenging experiences that have brought about significant change and growth, and I am grateful for all of them. It sucks so much to go through hard things but I see that I gain a lot by going through them and developing more as a person.

I'm the happiest that I've ever been as an adult. Things are in a good place mentally, which I have struggled with my entire life. I feel more whole and complete as a person than I ever have. I'm becoming a person that I'm really happy spending all the time with. That has not always been the case.

I have more hobbies and talents right now than I can even keep up with! It's a nice problem to have. I have grown more and tried more things because of the goals I've been setting, and they bring a lot of joy to my life and new things that I love filling my time with.

I would say I've always struggled with how I thought of myself or how others might think of me, and that is shifting. I'm proud of myself. I like who I'm becoming. It's made it a really great year. I don't know if it comes with age, but I don't worry as much about what others think of me. I'm just happy to be me.

I've really loved being in my thirties, and I'm a little sad that this is my last year. I already know this last year will fly, and I'll be forty in no time! I'm ready to live my last year of my thirties to the fullest! Another year down. One that I have really grown from. I'm looking forward to 39!