Embryo Transfer

Yesterday was transfer day! Little baby embryo got to finally be inside of me! I can't even begin to say how huge yesterday was for us! I was so excited but honestly crazy nervous!  

We dropped McKay off to school, Brynlee went to grandmas, my mom loaded us up on food and goodies and we were off! We had a 3-hour drive to the specialist in Utah. We got to Utah an hour earlier which we had planned, we tend to be late to everything and this was totally one of those moments we didn’t want to be late for! We spent that hour wandering grocery stores. Grocery stores people! We must have been some form of desperate. We didn’t even buy ourselves a single thing there. I was car sick and wandering around looking at food was not helping me keep it together. We had looked around for something more interesting but grocery stores were it for us but you do what there is to do.  

We got to the doctor's office and I took pills to help my body relax so it would be easier to do the procedure and then I chugged water like a crazy person. They say they want you to have a semi-full bladder to do it but by the time they came into do mine I felt ready to burst. No seriously, have you ever had to use the bathroom so badly you felt like crying? I was at that point. Maybe no one else does this, ok 5-year-olds probably do. Maybe my bladder can't handle much pressure or something.  It’s ok, I’ll relate to the 5-year-olds. I was literally on the verge of tears.

The first step was an ultrasound on my stomach with a LOT of pressure right on my bladder. I wanted to cry right then. A catheter has to get into the uterus and they were struggling getting it in. That was the most intense pain ever! They had to get a smaller catheter to see if that would work. The whole meds they gave me to relax those muscles obviously did NOT do their job.

I am a total baby when it comes to pain. Matt knows. I can't handle it and I complain a lot. But for whatever reason when it comes to doctors I show no emotion to the pain. I can just take it normally but not yesterday. I don't quite know how I reacted, I was too deep in the moment but I know that pain showed on my face and I was breathing harder. I was holding my body tight and I'm sure if I could have relaxed it would have helped them but I felt like if I would have relaxed I would have used the bathroom all over the doctor. He really should thank me for my restraint.

On a screen, we got to see our little embryo. Honestly, it looked like a speck of pepper but it was MY speck of pepper and it made me happy to see. As long as that screen was up I could focus on that but then the screen went blank and then no more speck to keep me sane. There was another screen of the ultrasound of the catheter going into me. That helped nothing. It just killed. Eventually, we were done and our doctor congratulated us. We had made it!  A huge sigh of relief when I FINALLY got to go use the bathroom. TMI I totally know it. But hey, if you’re choosing to read about my embryo transfer there is guaranteed going to be a lot of body part talk.

He gave us a prescription for more valium so my uterus wouldn't contract. If it contracts the baby can't implant. That's a scary thought.  

We went to Walgreens to pick it up. Matt went inside and I sat in the car. He texted awhile later seeing if I needed to use the bathroom. I decided that I might as well. I went in, used it and waited for Matt. We walked out to the car in the freezing cold. And... our car was locked with the keys in the ignition. Worst possible moment to have that happen. I was loopy feeling from meds, not supposed to be moving around a lot and we were stuck in Utah. In any normal situation, I would have been mad or cried. Considering how bad I felt I thought I’d lose it but I was totally calm. I credit that on a blessing I had been given the day before and I was told that God would be with me during transfer day. I know He helped me have peace in all of the different things we had to face. 

Matt saved us. We are not people to call lock Smith's right away but he did. Wonderful, wonderful man. This was not the time to sit and try to figure it out. Besides, we had food already ordered at Denny's for us. We were hungry. The lock Smith hit heavy traffic and in the end, it put us one hour and $100 behind what we expected. All well. We drive to Dennys and find out our food isn't ready because the lady accidentally gave our food away to someone else and they had to remake ours. A little while later we sat in the car and ate the food then finally we got to head home! We made it home at 10 PM. It was a long day. Walking in our house it was unusually cold. Yup. We came home to a broken furnace in the middle of December. We went to bed in a freezing house. It was quite the day. 

Today, the day I’m supposed to rest and take it easy, we are figuring out buying a new furnace. The sales guy is here figuring out what we need.

He is totally interrupting my hallmark Christmas movie binge-watching.

Sometimes things are just unexpected. You just roll with it. In the past, I would be angry and crying. Right now I keep laughing at the ridiculousness of it. It seems like life can sometimes kick you when you’re down. Every penny we own is going into this baby and now we have thrown on car problems, locksmith and now a new furnace. Merry Christmas to us.

In the end, I’m super, super excited and happy to have this little embryo inside of me. It’s finally here. No matter what is happening around us, cars, locked doors, furnace, it doesn’t matter. There is a little baby inside of me. I hope and pray that all goes well. Everything will get figured out. Things will get easier.  I’m still going to watch all the Hallmark movies that I’m planning on. So there, furnace sales guy.